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Hmm..Long holiday..5 days..Then back to training again..Soon it gonna be tough..Holiday no where near so it gonna be bz..Rifle range coming up..Field camp next..Soon it will be S.O.C and I.P.P.T..

I hope that all that will keep me bz..Keep me away from thinking bout her..

4 years ago it was Love At first Sight..She the one who make me start love..But it only last year that I really get to know her..But because of 1 mistake..Just 1..She make me wait..But the wait was just useless..2 month in the NS it make me far apart from her..Too far to show how much I love her..Too far to show how deep is my love for her..She been dating other guy..She was with other guy while I was in the camp thinking all bout her..

She change..She once told me that I was different from any other guy she know..But now I was an irritating guy who disturb her life..I regret making the mistake..I regret hurting her in the past..But feeling regret cant change anything..

I have done everything to get her back..I beg her..I plead her..I ask for forgiveness..Nothing works..I bought her a ring for her birthday but she reject it..Haiz..

Hanya Padamu:-

I used to be the best guy in your life..But I know I’m not anymore..A mistake separate us gurl..You know that I regret making that mistake..But feeling regret wont change your hate towards me..I know how much sorry that came out from my mouth,how much tears have been flowing out of my eyes and how long I waited you, I wont be getting you back..My wait end here gurl..I gave up..Gave up not because of not loving you anymore..But give up because I know you wont be here with me anymore..Haiz..

If I had a choice again i would never start to love..

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Let see..Hmm..1 month and 9 days..So so so dusty already..Ahakz..It not that I dun wanna write but everytime I wanna start writing my mind go blank..I think it is becoze of the shagness I get from the NS training..So dun blame me uh..Ahakz..Hmm..So what should I write about???Hope my mind wun go blank again..Ahakz..

NS life..NS life..NS life..Hmm..

Been through 8 weeks in one piece and still in one piece..That lucky enough already..Still not thinking of AWOL-ing(Absent without official leave) and OOT-ing(Out of training)..Still can endure many types of training they give..We had strength training,ET jog,circuit training,aqua jogging,aqua aerobics,aerobics,combat physical training,IPPT(NAFA Test) and more coming up soon..Going through each day with endurance and pain..But the pain that I been through really worth it coze I been losing fats and gaining muscle..Ahakz..

Aniwaz our platoon finally got caught smoking in the toilet..Haiz..Saper nye keje je isap rokok tak tahu flush..We will be confine next week and our ciggies would be control till Wednesday..That mean we smoke 2 ciggies per day..Haiz..

Weekend Life..Hmm..

It have been two weeks I did not meet methricals to lepak..Last week had staff outing to Johor..This week spend time at home resting..So sorry cant join you all to town today..Kocek koyak uh..Next week baru gaji masok..Tu pun tak tahu kluar ke tak coze got confinement..

K la..That all folks..Adios Amigos..

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Hey I am back..Aniwaz i am back the past 3 days but just update it b4 i going back to Tekong this afternoon..Hmm..Been at Tekong for the past 2 weeks..Sad to say that the life there was like a dog..Haiz..But been losing weight lately..3kg in 1 week..Gonna start losing weight soon!!!!!!!haha..Aniwaz here the update during the past 2 weeks at Tekong...I been writing this in my diary so i just copy it down here..*Wink*..

151206..(Friday)

It the 6th day of my NS and i been making frewn with my platoon mate and my bunk mate..The training here was quite ok for the past 3 few days..Getting up and down the stairs was really a fuck up..We are the fitest platoon on the company so they put us at level 5 bunk..Aniwaz i am already homesick..haiz..

161206..(Saturday)

It left 7 more days and we already cant wait for our first book out..We sing the book out song while we marching just now..I am the first one to wake up this morning..We had E.T walk for our first lesson and had two lesson from the magazine promoters..Now we had our freetime till lightout..Everyone was daydreaming ang sing jiwang song..My bunk mate do mish their gurl out there..As for me I do mish my Methricals..I do mish my parent..I mish my lappy..Haiz..

171206..(Sunday)

Wake up at 0520 this morning and had glucose rice for breakfast..Gave my frewn the chicken pau as i dun ate them..The E.T. walk was cancel today as it was raining..We had talk with our CSM for 6 hours..boring sey..Luckily there was smoke break..Tonight freetime was waste on our drill coze one fucker on our platoon slip during CSM talk..Haiz..Had talk with my mum just now on the phone..Holding my tears while talking to her..3 days already i had not contact her..Haiz...She ask me whether life here was ok..I just ask here that it was ok but actually it was not..They treat us like dog..I dun want her to worry so much..haiz..

K la..that all..Actually there is more but malas uh..haha..Update when i am back again yar..Aniwaz Mish you all la..Adios Amigos..

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In a few hours time I will be going..I dun know whether I am ready or not..Well I am ready with all my things pack but I am not ready to leave you guys especially the Methrical of Life..I will be missing all the soccer session and all the lepak-ing at the Longz with you guys..You guys are like brothers to me..The time I spend with you guys make my life worth living..The fun that we had make all my problem go away..Seriously I gonna mish you guys..You guys do take care hor..
Thanx hor for spending the last day with me and overnight at my house MY DEAR M.O.L..Really had fun with you guys..

Well guys..When you feel like lepak-ing my house to karaoke or wat just give Mambo a call kies..Make yourself at home..(Mcm tak biasa lak..Ahakz..)

WELL TO THE REST OF YOU GUYS OUT THERE..JUST TAKE CARE KIES..NO MATTER WAT,IF MAMBI KNOW YOU MAMBI CARE BOUT YOU KIES..MAMBI GONE FOR AWHILE..MAMBI WILL BE BACK KIES..TAKE CARE..ADIOS AMIGOS..

p/s:an e-mail just to someone to show that I care..

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Methrical+Orion Sentosa Outing

25th Nov 06

Firstly I wanna thank my Methrical Bro and Orion for the wonderful outing..Thanx for the tribute guys..I really have fun from the start of the day at the Sentosa till the end of the day at Vivo skygarden..

Things that we done in Sentosa:-

-Build tent(Nie part sial..Baru sampai jer nak bertekak pasal nak carik tempat..Haha)

-Play police and thief with card

-Play monkey with soccer ball

-Play rugby(Nie part tak leh accept..Main berapa minit jer bibir aku koyak..Mr ganas betul la korang..haha)

-Build human piramid

-Disturb Matrep(Nie part Mantot jer buat..Haha)

-Eat buffet(Nie part Zu,Manga,Mambo and Lemang buat muka tak tahu malu amik makan kat function org..Takpe la..At least free..Haha)

Things that we done at Vivo skygarden:-

-Took 3 bottles of laughing gas(Nie part kita buat haywire..Nasib there is no police or security..)

For now..Let the pictures do the talking......

The right side of the bus(Bomb,Lok,Manga,Pipit Mambo)

The left side of the bus(Bodz,Pejah,Mambi,Ju,Acap,Nez and Zu)

Instead of bus,we took van to Sentosa..

Setting up the tent

Abang2 Sapau-pau photo taking..Ahakz..

From left(Ju,Amin,Nez,Manga,Bodz,Pipit,Acap,Mambi,Zu & Bomb)

Keep the ball rolling guys

Zu cant keep off his hand from the guitar..Guitarist maut..

Playing card while Pejah busy studying..

The right side of the queue

From left(Bodz,Naz,Kopi,Ashik,Mel & Roy)

Left side of the queue

From left(Amin,Nez,Lok,Mantot,Pipit,Omar & Manga)

The centre of the queue

From Left(Manga,Omar & Mambi)

The Vivo pictures i have not get it from Lok so i will update more pictures later..That all..Adios Amigos..

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Weik..Hello and welcome..As usual i got to apologise for the lack of update..Ok2..I am sori okies..Ahakz..You know me right..I only update when i am not lazy or when i have something to talk about..Hmm..I have been roting at home for the past two days..So i have nothing to update but just update la...Takot nanti blog jadi jerok mcm other methrical blog..Ahakz..

So..Erm..Since there nothing to talk about let talk cock..Weik!!Tak censored la dekni..Ahakz..Aniwaz anibody got sleeping pills??Nowdays it hard for me to slip at night la..It very the rare ar to see me to slip at night..If i am lucky then i get to slip..Tu pun terslip sey..I will wake up once awhile..There is no more good night lar..Haiz..So anibody??I want sleeping pill pls pls pls..Dua tiga bijik ke..Lagi2 yang botol dia ada gambar senapang gajah..Kalau kene confirm KO nye..Ahakz..Alamak..Merepek uh dekni..Haha..

This few days i have recontact with my Ex that have left me 1 year ago..Actually it my past lover not my Ex..Have not even be my gurl..Lagi sikit je la nak jadi tapi tak jadi2..Ahakz..What to do she left me without me knowing the reason..*Sob Sob*..She look thin la now..Haiyo..She say she wanna lose weight more..Haha..I dun understand la all the gurls nowdays..Ahem2..I mean some..Haha..Badan figure dah ok lagi nak kurus mcm tiang goalpost..Ahakz..Aniwaz we just get to chat at msn and catch things up..Get to know the reason why she left me..Haiz..Let learn from our mistake kies..Aniwaz me and her frewn2 only..

Hmm..Oh ya..METHRICALS!!!!!!!!SOK ADA JADI KA PA???Not sure the sentosa outing is on off..But i think it should be on la..They going for my sake..Aku kan nak masok NS..So berkorban la korang..Ahakz..Syg korang la Methricals..So let me announce again.......

25th Nov...Methricals Sentosa Outing..Everybody are welcome..Yang kenal..Yang nak kenal2..Dan yang buat2 kenal semua are invited kies..Jangan ckp org tak jemput tau..Ahakz..The time and the meeting place will be update tonight after our meeting..ANIWAZ DUN FORGET MAMBI OPEN TABLE BUT......Korang bawak makan letak atas meja uh..Ahakz..Saper2 nak ikot just kol Mambi kies..

K lar..Itu sajer..Kalau ada silap bahasa yang korang tak leh accept ke guek mintak maaf..Tapi kalau ada merepekness yang korang tak leh accept tu korang terpaksa reject uh..My blog my say k...Adios Amigos..

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3 more weeks and i am gone..Everyone kept asking what the countdown for so here i am making an announcement..In 3 weeks time i gonna go serve the Nation..I have been selected to be an army at Tekong..Might be away for number of months lar..Hope that when I am away nobody gonna mish me..Should be ar..Ahakz..Gonna mish my Family..ITE friends..Outside friends especially my M.O.L..Korang jiwa uh beb..Haha..

Sorry for closing my blog for a short while coze been lazy to update my blog and had been busy with my raya outing and having fun before serving my NS..M.O.L timetable have been running back normal with soccer every Tuesday and Thursday and Lepak at the Longz if we got time..Haha..Aniwaz I wanna thanx my Bro Zu and cuzzie Shai for treating me and the rest pizza hut la..Wanna have it so much but no money uh..Ahakz..Nasib ada Abg pizza hut rider kat M.O.L..Haha..

Hmm..Wanna touch a bit bout love lar..I have a question for all of you lar..If someone scared to give in becoze he/she dun want to be hurt but without giving in he/she know that he/she will lose that guy/gurl..Then what should he/she do uh??Any Doctor Love Out there??Somebody need your help..Just tag your answer hor..Ahakz..
Oh yar..One more announcement!!!!!!!!!!

M.O.L is having Sentosa outing on the 25th November..Everyody is welcome to join hor..Tak kira lar yang kenal atau yang nak kenal2..Semua dijemput..Guek open table jer..Korang bawak makan letakz atas table kies..Ahakz..
K lor..That all..Sikit jer..If got time I update again kies..Adios Amigos..

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